Tuesday, July 21, 2009

破裂

好想逃跑,离开种种的困扰与伤感
家家有本难念的经
这次,做错事的并不是我也不是我哥和姐
却个个都被大骂一顿
陈年旧事更是搬了一件又一件来说
而我最痛心的是,爸爸对我说“只是一些小风波”
如果是真的,为何妈妈会哭?

昨天是姐姐的生日,也是家里发生大口战的一天
收到姐的简讯,正是我看完医生之后
由于是他载我去医院,当然我就直接把事情告诉他
在把事情告诉他的时候我也不禁哭了起来
那是我第二次在他面前哭
第一次是在PD的那个晚上
小姐啊,眼泪请别那么容易掉下....

我没有再多的勇气去面对
正因为我的病还没康复
吓到了室友们,好尴尬哦
却让我感觉到友谊的温暖
真心的问候远远超越那些泛泛之交说的冷笑话
敷衍的话语更是让我看清谁才是真的朋友。

我的长处,也是我的致命伤,也许是在思考这方面
总是会想得太多,顾虑太多
没完没了的忧愁,也许是让我们向前的推动力
不然,则化为前方的绊脚石。

这次真的不懂该怎么做才好。
我真的好累。

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Trip to PD ~

I never liked to go for trips with another person alone. The same goes to normal outings n hangouts. I prefer it to be in groups. Like to talk with different people than to the same person all the time. So it took me some time b4 decided to go PD with him. We went there yesterday early morning and came back this afternoon.

This post is for me to keep as memory and not for you to comment. wahhahaha. chinhan thought i brought him back to kuantan after seeing the photo i put on msn. :D He drove her mom's car for safety purposes. First and foremost, introducing to all, giraffes in Auntie Jean's car, i named them DumbDumb. hahahah.

On the way to there 100% with the help of GPS device alone.

My driver for life :D

Been hearing so much bad things about PD. People said it's so dirty la, full of rubbish la, damn polluted la n bla bla bla. So this trip, initially i didn't put much anticipation and expectation one. But as we're arriving and the seaside started to appear, i was so amazed! And straightaway felt excited ! Have a look at this..


Isn't it pretty? Emerald blue sea okay.. just like any other famous islands like Redang. But sad to tell, thats only true when you're seeing it from far. When you go nearer, you'll realise how polluted it actually is, can see rubbish floating too. Lol, so this is the disappointment i got upon the change of perception of mine earlier on... Haa

Bcuz we reach there earlier than the check-in time, hence the need to wait. We had like 2 hours to be spent before we can check in. Walked around the hotel and took some random pics. Nothing much can be done as there's no activities apart from swimming.

Corus Paradise Resort, the place i stayed at.

spot the shadow of ours !! :D

This is how the hotel looks like at nite. Much more grand it seems rite. Memorable day i had. And i realised staying with another person is not easy!! haha. Thanks for the memory~ :D

Friday, July 10, 2009

Cave cAvE ~

I've only been to a real cave for twice.. Once at Pahang and another time at Sarawak. Today i entered a cave, without any difficulty to get there or sweat like shit in order to reach, it's at SS2. Haha. I guess everyone of you know where i'm referring to. In case you dont know, it's the famous couple restaurant lah duh.

Erm, super no "yun fan" with this shop, as in I've gone there for 3 times but today was the 1st time i actually eat there. 1st time was V'day, we went without booking so definitely no place. 2nd time it was closed. And 3rd time it was closed too, Red FM had some event there. Finally !! today, i experienced what they mentioned as the good "environment for couple".

Well, i'll say it's not badddd lah. Atmosphere is definitely alot better than other restaurants which is mostly very noisy and full of people chit-chatting loudly and uncontrollably, which i dont like. But, when you take a look at the menu, Gosh..

1. so little choices.. not much things for you to choose. Theres only Western and Japanese.
2. the prices are high weih.. way higher than other places. well mayb cuz of the atmosphere it created ba. cheapest main course i can find from the menu is rm18.90 and most expensive can go up to rm50++. It's about TGI price dy okay.. Mind you, only main course yea, no appetizer no drinks no soup no nothing. And the portion of it is definitely...i call it "standard".


Tiew pohleong told me he went there, and ordered a sandwich which was not bad and cost like rm13+. I flipped thru the menu again and again just to find it, couldnt find pun. Itu penipu =p Then i get to know that they changed their menu, and the sandwich is no longer in the menu. huhu so i ordered the cheapest of all.. and the most normal of all.. Chicken Bolognese Spaghetti.

Him with his seafood spaghetti and his all time fave drink-chocolate ~
Dunno what wish he made... =.=

<3

Couples!! or those in "ai mei" relationship, can go visit The Cave when you free OH!! haha

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Randomness

Music MUS!c mUSiC !
if life is without music, it will be plain boring..
since i back from holiday, this is the first time i open my ttplayer normal playlist and let the songs randomly play itself. Bcuz i cant use my own laptop to online in ktn, tats why tonite i was super enjoyed listening back those songs i used to listen frequently.

Emo songs...my all time favourite
Happy songs..sometimes yes sometimes no la. depends on my mood. but den, sometimes mood good good go listen emo songs also can become eMo.

Therefore, this thing crossed my mind few seconds ago.
Why can't i just stop listening to emo songs and only listen to happy n lively songs? By doing so, will my life improve? Can i stop myself from being emo anymore? Will i be able to maintain my happiness level at an acceptable lvl all the time? If i delete all the songs that reminds me of my stories, reminds me of people that will affect my mood, will i succeed in avoiding all the emo-ness that always strike me? These thoughts left myself with loads of huge huge question marks. Unanswered.

I've been thinking too much.. StOp !!
aih.. p2 p3
driving test..
aug results..
re-sit?
PROFESSIONAL exam?
B.F ?
crapppppp.
I'm so not in the position to hav a bf.
But i wont let him down no more. Not now.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

It was a happy day

...but with no pictures at all sadly to tell.

First of all, i finally met my classmates today ! after 2 weeks of boredom at home.. Initial Group 8 only left 7 or 8 persons in today's class, which was kinda depressing. I hope i won't fail papers in August so that i can remain in the group and not becoming one of those that will gotta leave for resitting other subjects.

Miss Wong is good. at least i don't doze off in class easily. But then again, first day is always good as one will always want to leave a good impression to others, just like Miss Kiran's first day. So it's still too early to make further judgement. We will see. On the other hand, was quite happy and relieved that we're still able to talk after the quarrel that we had over the month. Thanks for not treating me like a stranger haha!

Went to watch Ice Age after class just now. Too much anticipation. Deep disappointment. Not really "that funny" like wat other people had been saying and from wat i saw in the trailer. Sighs. Perhaps i'm getting old, no longer into this kinda movie anymore. Some of the scenes are quite ridiculous to me, where people around me laughed so hard but i turned and looked at cc and asked, "funny meh uh?" :-S I still believe in cartoons...watch at home is enough. Not cinema. But coz he wanted to watch it so much..so yea. I'm willing to accom.

After movie, we went for dinner.. Then went yao cheh ho~ then chinhan called. And we decided to meet at SS2! together with kokwai n lixing! Pasar Malam ! Weih~Good ! Went makan around the stalls and ended up at "gei dak sek" for tong sui. Not bad la~ heheheh at least this time cc finally join and didnt show unhappy face ! keep it up !

I'm very happy as there was no unhapiness at all today..no emo-ness that strikes...although Ethan left, and i wasnt able to send a text to him in time. Although im not-so-single anymore, but Friends!! Pls stay with me!! I need you all more than anything else. Don't distant me just because you think i might not be as free as before. I'll always make myself available for you! as long as you're nice! kaka! darling liyun, dont distant me like how you distant your gal bestfriends last time when they've got bf oh.. no others can replace good ji mui !

Everything seems so good..
Perhaps it's the beginning of the semester..
Perhaps there's still no stress or pressure from anywhere..
Perhaps i'm still fresh and positive..
Perhaps i would hav to work a lil harder to make this lasts.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Dear Ethan..

Whenever i see Cappuccino on the menu or in the supermarket, i'll think of you.. You're my only guyfren in KL that like coffee. Because of you, i started drinking Cappuccino instead of Mocha. And i realised, Mocha is not the best coffee that i could get (like how i thought for the past few years), there's still Latte..Espresso..Cappuccino...and so on.


I didn't know you during my first sem in Sunway. so did the second sem, though you were just sitting behind me in class, bcos you seemed cocky to me and i m not the type that will approach new people to talk when they don't look friendly and nice. Started talking to you only in the 1st sem of ACCA, i still rmbr it was about ICAEW. We spoke in English initially as i thought you were just a pure banana with no chinese background at all.

As time goes by, i found that you're really a super nice guy, who care about friends alot. I'll never forget how you've been listening n conforting during the bad times when i was having difficulties in relationship. You helped me pass my Law as well. lol. And then slowly, i found out that you can become quite scary a "monster" when your mood is bad, or when things annoy you so badly that you couldnt bear. I know you're working on this and i honestly think that one day you can overcome it. So do I. :)

The days in SAC camp were never easy if it's without you, especially during jungle trekking. The way you helped me thru, the hand you lend me, it felt like a bf, a bro, a dad..whatever you call it. Felt "protected" that is. This is the feeling i seldom get from guyfriends around me as i often think that i could handle stuff myself.

Day passes by and we're growing further and further apart, due to difference in opinion and i disagreed with the way you see and do things. That happened half a year back. We seldom talk to each other. Was kinda upset and i felt like i've lose a good friend. However things took a change after awhile. We were good again. And i was happy that i hadnt lose you yet. Haha.

Sorry for unable to attend your farewell BBQ party that night as i couldn't make it to come back in time. Hope you enjoyed the meal just now anyway. It's our last time seeing each other before you fly off tmr. Remember to treat me when you come back pula alright.

I'm definitely gonna miss you alot, Goodfriend.